Dear Anjali
I am Chinmay. I am 20 years old. I am healthy but I have few things to talk about.
1) I have a mole on my penis. It is just above the tip from where I urinate. It is 3mm in diameter (yes, I measured it). Its very dark. My penis colour is not dark hence it is quite visible from even 5 feet. I know it has no effect on my health but sometimes I really feel awkward living with a "mole branded penis". Sometimes I think how my wife would react when she sees my penis?
2) I have been masturbuting since I turned 13 I guess. Most of the time I don't dream about a young girl or a girl of my age even though I find them attractive. Whenever I am hard, I dream about a lady in her 40s or 50s. When I don't think about sex, my attitude towards mature ladies is normal. At that time I will rather choose to talk with a girl of my age. But when I am hard, the situation is different.
There is this one lady in my family. She is my mami and aged 33-34. We stay in different cities, we share a very good and healthy realtionship. We are best buddies, we share many things. She is a person with whom I can share my crushes, complaints about parents. Even she tells me some things which she doesn't like about her in-laws, or proposals she had received in her college life....etc. In fact we are bff.
But I dream about her whenever I am masturbuting. Her breast are large. 1 or 2 times I couldn't resist myself from staring at her breasts. She was laying down on floor with one of her hand behind her neck and that gave me a very seductive view of her breasts. After enough of staring I went to toilet and masturbated, ending with a very rememberable orgasm. Whenever I am normal I don't think like this. But When I am turned on, I do. I don't know upto which age this attraction to mature bodies will go on. Should I stop myself from dreaming these pleasureble shitty things or shall I let it go? Will this affect my choice when it comes to marriage?
I am Chinmay. I am 20 years old. I am healthy but I have few things to talk about.
1) I have a mole on my penis. It is just above the tip from where I urinate. It is 3mm in diameter (yes, I measured it). Its very dark. My penis colour is not dark hence it is quite visible from even 5 feet. I know it has no effect on my health but sometimes I really feel awkward living with a "mole branded penis". Sometimes I think how my wife would react when she sees my penis?
2) I have been masturbuting since I turned 13 I guess. Most of the time I don't dream about a young girl or a girl of my age even though I find them attractive. Whenever I am hard, I dream about a lady in her 40s or 50s. When I don't think about sex, my attitude towards mature ladies is normal. At that time I will rather choose to talk with a girl of my age. But when I am hard, the situation is different.
There is this one lady in my family. She is my mami and aged 33-34. We stay in different cities, we share a very good and healthy realtionship. We are best buddies, we share many things. She is a person with whom I can share my crushes, complaints about parents. Even she tells me some things which she doesn't like about her in-laws, or proposals she had received in her college life....etc. In fact we are bff.
But I dream about her whenever I am masturbuting. Her breast are large. 1 or 2 times I couldn't resist myself from staring at her breasts. She was laying down on floor with one of her hand behind her neck and that gave me a very seductive view of her breasts. After enough of staring I went to toilet and masturbated, ending with a very rememberable orgasm. Whenever I am normal I don't think like this. But When I am turned on, I do. I don't know upto which age this attraction to mature bodies will go on. Should I stop myself from dreaming these pleasureble shitty things or shall I let it go? Will this affect my choice when it comes to marriage?