Very sad, You hurted her badly, assume you are in her place, or can you gather courage to put the same thing of your penis size in your anal hole, 'No', then why did you hurt her badly, just for your personal sake.
Anal hole has constrictive muscles which controls its opening & clossing at ones will, also anal has various nerves endings and blood carring veins which are quite delicate & sensitive. What torture you gave her is irrepairable loss, have you ever been suffered from pills /anal fissure alliment. perhaps 'NO', you would only come to know about the anal pain when in future if you get anal fissure problem.
Also, anal sex is not natural & it is punishable act in law.
Now, extent every possible co-operation to her as much as you can, express your love, help her in daily domastic activities, though she is a maid, but some time prepare tea & breakfast and bring to her while letting her sit/sleep at your sofa/bed, love her as you are her true lover adore her as much as you can, massage her body, legs, back, shoulders.
If I would have been at your place I would keep treat her as my Qeene 'sapno ki raani', whateveer you wrote in your question is partly un bliveable, but even though I suggest you do not trouble her, if like vaginal sex, do that only also always apply lot of coconut oil over your penis then slowly slide your fully erect penis inside her vagina and do as she suggests you to do with her, gently suck her boobs, lick her vagina, learn how to give pleasure to women by oral sex performance.
Anal hole has constrictive muscles which controls its opening & clossing at ones will, also anal has various nerves endings and blood carring veins which are quite delicate & sensitive. What torture you gave her is irrepairable loss, have you ever been suffered from pills /anal fissure alliment. perhaps 'NO', you would only come to know about the anal pain when in future if you get anal fissure problem.
Also, anal sex is not natural & it is punishable act in law.
Now, extent every possible co-operation to her as much as you can, express your love, help her in daily domastic activities, though she is a maid, but some time prepare tea & breakfast and bring to her while letting her sit/sleep at your sofa/bed, love her as you are her true lover adore her as much as you can, massage her body, legs, back, shoulders.
If I would have been at your place I would keep treat her as my Qeene 'sapno ki raani', whateveer you wrote in your question is partly un bliveable, but even though I suggest you do not trouble her, if like vaginal sex, do that only also always apply lot of coconut oil over your penis then slowly slide your fully erect penis inside her vagina and do as she suggests you to do with her, gently suck her boobs, lick her vagina, learn how to give pleasure to women by oral sex performance.
